After so long I'm blogging and in the end I'm gonna left it hanging again for 10 weeks
My apologies for not updating anything mostly about my ups & downs.
Well, I won't be able to update for 10 weeks pretty obvious why
NATIONAL FUCKING SERVICE WOOH!
I'm kinda happy tho cause I'm out of this place full of problems
I seriously don't know what to do right here right now
I'm so clueless that I need to at least leave here I can't stand all these conflicts
It's disturbing and distracting to me
I used to think that I always have a great life with no problems
But sometimes people's problem became your problem which is ridiculous
I never told anyone about it because I end up in tears and I knew
So I kept all inside and no one knows
I won't be posting it here as I wouldn't want anyone know what happened
I just want everything to be better that's all
Plus, problems after problems is really tiring and I need a rest
One thing that everyone knew is that I've lost my used-to-be my other half -
JOEY CHEN HUE LYNN
RIP 
I truly miss her I don't know what to fucking do when she left all of us
It was so sudden and I'll miss her forever
Everyone will miss you forever, Hun.
You were my other half in high school and I can't accept the fact that you're gone
Because this is so unfair
WHY YOU! WHY HE CHOSE YOU! WHY CAN'T IT BE ME!
I thought I have everything in life not until I've lost her
That's when I realize that I need to start cherish everyone beside me
People that's been there for me
Everyday I'm praying that He won't take anyone away from me
Everyday I'm praying for everyone's safety because I can't bare for anyone to leave me
I'm scared that what if one day I'm all alone
What if one day everyone decide to leave me
What if He just took away them from me
Everyday I'm just so scared because we never what'll happen tomorrow
We can't predict shits and I'm fucking scared
All I'm hoping is everyone to stay safe and stay healthy
I can't bare it anymore. This year is too much tbh for me
Please please please stay safe
Anyways, enough of these emotional stuffs
As you notice my songs are all koreans and yes I'm a KPOP fan (don't fucking judge)
But I don't worship them like God
I'm just really swoon by some of them who are hotties
And I'm inspired by them as well chasing their dreams which really do come true
Everything comes from hard work
I've been really into rappers these days
Because their lyrics are really from the bottom of their hearts
Which I'm really impressed right now
For example G-Dragon (my no.1 husband) and B.I (my no. 2 husband) hehe
And yes I've changed my url cause I really have no idea why
I guess I don't want to let anyone know what I'm really trying to tell
To sum it up,
CHERISH THE PEOPLE AROUND YOU AND STAY SAFE
That's what I'm hoping will do from now on.
"내 꿈은 포기 못해"
joey. x
