It has been a month since I last update my blog. Millions sorry. Busy. Finals.
Whatever. Finals are still on and I don't give a fuck.
I bet you'll be thinking 'Wtf is FAM?' Right? No? My bad.
It's FAMILY in short for me. I don't make it too obvious though. That's why.
As you see, out of all my blogs I don't usually talk about my family matters and never will.
Except my dad. But that's different issues though. Is it not? I don't know. Whatever.
Whatever. Finals are still on and I don't give a fuck.
I bet you'll be thinking 'Wtf is FAM?' Right? No? My bad.
It's FAMILY in short for me. I don't make it too obvious though. That's why.
As you see, out of all my blogs I don't usually talk about my family matters and never will.
Except my dad. But that's different issues though. Is it not? I don't know. Whatever.
Anyways, if I'm not mistaken it was last week and everything gone wrong.
And you're wondering what and who I'm gonna talk about right now.
Brother. Yes. My one and only big brother.
So my brother got a girlfriend about a month ago I think. She's 17. I know. One year older.
Whatever. She's still my brother's girlfriend. I don't mind at all.
But it's my family that bothers. I don't know why. They don't like her.
Okay. I understand that she don't come from a good family background.
And her job which I don't know what is it. But I still don't mind. Although it bothers me.
For me, I do think she's nice and all. There's many food when she comes to our house.
Well, maybe it's because she didn't do anything that offend or bothers me.
My elder sister gets annoyed with her. I don't know why. She calls her fucking bitch.
That hurts a lot to say to people like that.
Okay so she stays at my home maybe on the weekends?
My sister thinks that she's a slut and everything staying over at people's house.
I just don't get why must she be so offended by everything she does.
Yes she did took stuff without permission. That's what pissed my sister off.
I get it I get it. I really do. But you don't have to called her slut and fucking bitch.
I wouldn't call her that if it were me. I have my pride as well.
So it all started when my sister exploded. My brother and his girlfriend were in his room.
Then, she started to called my brother and literally yelled at him.
Let me tell you, it was 2 fucking a.m. in the fucking morning. I'm not asleep yet.
I was downstairs with my earphones and laptop. My music wasn't going on in my ear.
All I can hear is her yelling and screaming. And that's when they starts to argue.
Anyways, you might not know but I have trauma of people arguing especially in front of me.
I was holding back my tears. I hate to see people arguing especially my families. I have my past.
My brother stop arguing and my sister yelled 'How dare you talk to me like this?!'
As you see, my elder sister never in her life have anyone talk back to her. Not even my dad.
She starts banging the table. She's not happy with the fact that my brother talks back.
My parents were sleeping. And not even stepping out of the room.
They think that my brother is hopeless already and too lazy to even talk to him.
I understand that. Yes. My brother treats our home like hotel.
But no matter what, we're still a family and he's still my beloved brother.
My brother always comes home late or never come back at all.
He stays over at his friends house at all previously.
What have we done to deserve all this? Is it karma?
That night I was crying myself to sleep. I don't even know what to do.
I was hopeless that night. They were just yelling to each other right beside me.
I realize I've been holding back my tears for so long. The next day my eyes were swollen.
What happen to me and my family? I don't understand.
Why can't we just be like other family? Always having dinner together and all.
But no. My family relationships has been bad ever since I don't know when.
Why can't we be like other family siblings? Why must we fall apart?
Is it because we don't spend much time together? I don't get it.
What have we done to go through all this? All this problems.
Why does my family had to be like this? I never understand this part.
But to be honest, I can't live without my brother. He's my one and only brother.
Although he don't do much for me or be there for me, I know he cares for everyone.
I know deep down inside he still cares for me and everybody.
But they won't look inside of him. Never takes the time to understand him.
I know all he wants is for us to understand him and what he wants to do.
But no. They just don't want to dig deeper. I want to understand him.
I realize he don't want anyone to read his mind.
Brother. Yes. My one and only big brother.
So my brother got a girlfriend about a month ago I think. She's 17. I know. One year older.
Whatever. She's still my brother's girlfriend. I don't mind at all.
But it's my family that bothers. I don't know why. They don't like her.
Okay. I understand that she don't come from a good family background.
And her job which I don't know what is it. But I still don't mind. Although it bothers me.
For me, I do think she's nice and all. There's many food when she comes to our house.
Well, maybe it's because she didn't do anything that offend or bothers me.
My elder sister gets annoyed with her. I don't know why. She calls her fucking bitch.
That hurts a lot to say to people like that.
Okay so she stays at my home maybe on the weekends?
My sister thinks that she's a slut and everything staying over at people's house.
I just don't get why must she be so offended by everything she does.
Yes she did took stuff without permission. That's what pissed my sister off.
I get it I get it. I really do. But you don't have to called her slut and fucking bitch.
I wouldn't call her that if it were me. I have my pride as well.
So it all started when my sister exploded. My brother and his girlfriend were in his room.
Then, she started to called my brother and literally yelled at him.
Let me tell you, it was 2 fucking a.m. in the fucking morning. I'm not asleep yet.
I was downstairs with my earphones and laptop. My music wasn't going on in my ear.
All I can hear is her yelling and screaming. And that's when they starts to argue.
Anyways, you might not know but I have trauma of people arguing especially in front of me.
I was holding back my tears. I hate to see people arguing especially my families. I have my past.
My brother stop arguing and my sister yelled 'How dare you talk to me like this?!'
As you see, my elder sister never in her life have anyone talk back to her. Not even my dad.
She starts banging the table. She's not happy with the fact that my brother talks back.
My parents were sleeping. And not even stepping out of the room.
They think that my brother is hopeless already and too lazy to even talk to him.
I understand that. Yes. My brother treats our home like hotel.
But no matter what, we're still a family and he's still my beloved brother.
My brother always comes home late or never come back at all.
He stays over at his friends house at all previously.
What have we done to deserve all this? Is it karma?
That night I was crying myself to sleep. I don't even know what to do.
I was hopeless that night. They were just yelling to each other right beside me.
I realize I've been holding back my tears for so long. The next day my eyes were swollen.
What happen to me and my family? I don't understand.
Why can't we just be like other family? Always having dinner together and all.
But no. My family relationships has been bad ever since I don't know when.
Why can't we be like other family siblings? Why must we fall apart?
Is it because we don't spend much time together? I don't get it.
What have we done to go through all this? All this problems.
Why does my family had to be like this? I never understand this part.
But to be honest, I can't live without my brother. He's my one and only brother.
Although he don't do much for me or be there for me, I know he cares for everyone.
I know deep down inside he still cares for me and everybody.
But they won't look inside of him. Never takes the time to understand him.
I know all he wants is for us to understand him and what he wants to do.
But no. They just don't want to dig deeper. I want to understand him.
I realize he don't want anyone to read his mind.
No matter what, he'll always be my one and only brother.
"There's no other love like the love for a brother.
There's no other love like the love from a brother."
joey. x
"There's no other love like the love for a brother.
There's no other love like the love from a brother."
joey. x
