Remain...

People often asked me "Why the fuck are you still with him?"

My friends who known me well, know that with my personality, 

I couldn't stand it and will often choose to leave.

But yesterday, I learnt something from a friend of mine whom I got close recently. 

He said, liking someone and loving someone are totally different.
Both bring different meanings. 

He said, love is not all about buying flowers and saying I love you. 

It's about making your partner stronger. 

Grow together. Make plans together. Motivate each other. Now, that's love. 

Not every relationships are perfect. In fact, none are perfect. 

Somehow, at this moment, I blamed myself apparently.
For hoping and expecting too much which in the end, I hurt myself. 

I accept for who he is and how he is.
He have his wrongs, so do I. I can't always see it from my point of view. 

I know somehow, it's gonna get easier but not today. 

I don't know how to say it but I just hope he'll learn to tell me everything instead of keeping it. 

Because I can't tell what he feels. 

Whenever he's pissed or angry, I have no idea. 

But for him, I'll stay. No matter how long it is, I'll wait and I'll stay.

"You know you can trust me right? 

  Learn to tell me things. 

  Learn to be honest with me. 

  Learn to complaint even if it's not necessary to me.

  Learn to tell me your problems. 

  I'm here for a reason.
  We are together for a reason.
  I know I'm not the perfect girlfriend and I can never be the perfect one,

  But for all I know, I'll try. No matter what, for you, I'll try."

Iloveyou.